This is a photo of my beautiful husband Sam. If you know us personally you would know just how well liked my husband is. People admire him, not just for his good looks but for his strength and values.

This man is amazing. I mean that with every inch of my being.

The other afternoon whilst we were spending a rare minute together he looked at me and said completely out of the blue “You know I would have really loved to have had a  son.”

My heart sunk.

Although I know he thinks of him often, Sam rarely ever mentions Christian. I sometimes forget that he lost a son too. Sam is the most wonderful father to his 3 little girls. They completely adore him.

I grieve for Sam.

This photo above was taken by a great friend of ours named Andy Evans at our beach ceremony that we held on October 15th last year. In this photo I see a father with his son. Christian’s presence is picked up within the bright white lights that appear around Sam. It is such a haunting image to me. As much as this is one of my most treasured photographs I so wish the story was different. I so wish this photo was on a football field with Sam kicking the ball to his son.

Sam will always be a Dad to a little boy. I just wish Christian was here for Sam. You know, physically.

Thinking of the Dads this evening.