I will be honest in saying that I am relieved I never have to go through the experience of trying to conceive and then endure the months of worrying and anxiety that comes with being pregnant after such a loss. I have my 3 girls to mother over and I am so grateful that got to keep them.
So many of my friends are trying to conceive. For some it is easy to fall pregnant, for others it feels to them as almost impossible and then there are my friends who have genetic issues. It is just so cruel. I find it so hard to sit back and watch. There is little I can say that would make any difference to how they are feeling. But I am there, to listen, to hope, to cry with them. To take photos of their growing bellies and then if we are lucky, I get to photograph their live and healthy babies. I am there.
Each night when I return from my visit to the beach. I light candles for my friends who are trying to conceive and some for those who are carrying babies in their wombs after a loss. It’s just a simple moment that I take to lift them up in prayer. It used to be a very basic altar filled with candles and pieces of moonstone. I have many altars throughout my home, all of them holding a different purpose. After visiting my friend Angie‘s art studio on Etsy I found one of her meditating mama paintings. Oh my goodness, I was so meant to find her. Within a couple of weeks, Angie’s meditating mama had crossed the seas and this morning she arrived into my hands.
Angie suggested to me that I could write my friend’s names down on some paper and place some pieces of rose quartz and malachite over the names and so I have done just that. I wrote all the names I could think of. And I so I pray for them.
If you are trying to conceive after a loss or you are already pregnant and feeling overwhelmed with anxiety and worry, maybe you could have a think about creating an altar for yourself. It is a sacred space that you create. A moment for you to sit down close your eyes and take some deep breaths. You could write yourself out a mantra such as Breathe in Peace, Breathe out Worry.
Allow yourself to feel that worry and release it. Concentrating on slowing down your breathing will help to calm your heart and mind.
If you would like me to write down your name to have it placed on my altar, just let me know by leaving me a comment here or on facebook. I would be honoured to include you in this precious space.
Sue ♥ Jodie ♥ Franchesca ♥ Corina ♥ Teresa ♥ Angie ♥ My gorgeous friends, this space is for you and all the other women out there who are walking this road. I carry you all in my heart, always. And whether you carry your babies in your arms or only in your hearts, you are all beautiful mamas.